Giggle, Hey! Sorry not sorry for swearing. I do that. My mom hates it, but its part of my style. She got over it. You will too.
So, the energies are crazy lately. As an Empath, which if your reading this blog, you likely are. The short and sweet definition of empath is someone who is sensitive and feels the energy of others (people, animals, nature, etc). More and more of us are starting to acknowledge or recognize that we are sensitive and growing more and more as time goes on. It means that we are receiving more information on a vibrational level, and yet we may not be consciously ready to hear it. So I invite you to meditate. I invite you to refocus, and surrender to listening to the universe. Did you know that the entire purpose of our life here on the planet it to learn? and as doing such we must embrace change. This will presented to us as an opportunity. We can choose to pay attention and listen to what is being presented, trusting that it is truth and we are safe. OR we can choose to ignore and stay stuck, destined to repeat this lesson over again until it is learned. DEAR ONES, BE BRAVE. TRUST YOUR HEART. LISTEN WITH YOUR HEART. You will not be steered in the wrong direction. To listen you may need more than meditation though.... you may need to adjust your self care routine... or maybe even fucking embrace one already!!!! Self care is so very important and can show up for you in your life in a multitude of ways. You may want to do some energy healing like reiki or therapeutic touch, possibly some massage therapy or exercise. It often looks like having a dynamite conversation of #realtalk with a close friend. Sometimes self care is having a damn good orgasm, no i don't care how you get there, and yes I did write this. lol. You see my love, without self care we aren't operating at full capacity. when that happens we end up missing things. We miss small moments of connection. We miss signs. We miss the love that is being bestowed upon us every moment of every day. We miss it.
One of the reasons why I started the Gather the Women's groups is because I needed it. My schedule doesn't allow for much girl time. Truth be told, its work, family, meditate/pray, work, family, meditate/pray, work..... you see where I'm going with that. Sounds familiar right. This is not good. WE need time to play. So, now I have on Night a month where I know I'll get to play!!!!! And if your female, (sorry gents), You should join me. I may be the organizer but I'm not in charge. Ladies speak and are heard. We acknowledge and confirm feelings. We offer advice when asked. We support and lift each other with out judgement and with love. Its kind of incredible if I do say so myself! I have been asked to come to other communities to teach it so that it can grow. I'm honoured and humbled to help others connect. Its so cool to watch the ripple effect.
Anyway, It had been way too long since I blogged & wanted to reach out to you to tell you that your not alone in feeling like a hot mess. I'm right here with you. And, its ok. Just don't stay there. :) If your on facebook at all I just finished a live guided meditation. Go give it a try. It may just be what you need for your self care today.
I love you so very much. I'll connect again soon. xoxo T
Much about working with energy is about having the right intention. With that in mind I write to YOU!
Dear One, full moons are full of amazing energy. Not only can it clear stagnant or negative energy, but it can infuse new life into your crystals, jewellery and life. Simply place your items under the moon light, outside is best, but if it is winter months or you live in a very busy area, you may want to try inside. Put them out at sun down and bring them in at sunrise.... or whenever you get up. You yourself can also sleep under the full moon too.
I am currently on a healing journey of sorts and reached for this magical meditation to help me manifest the way I wanted my life to move forward from this point on. I have included the Mother Earth Manifestation Meditation at the bottom of this post. It will only be for a limited time. It is 13 minutes long, but incredibly powerful. Don't worry if you don't currently have a direction or life goals. Your Intuitive mind/higher power will show you what you really desire or what your next step is. As with all my meditations all I ask is that you LISTEN & BREATHE. Eyes open or closed, sitting or laying down, totally up to YOU.
Enjoy & Happy Full Moon Lovies <3 xo Truly
Hello my Lovies, I hope you are well and I am sorry that I have taken so long to write to you again. A few things have come up for me recently that I wanted to address with you.
I know many of you are frustrated with the amount of time that it takes to get into see me for a one on one visit. As a small business owner it is a nice problem to have, but it is still a problem. I am one person and I have three little children under the age of seven. As any parent knows children rely on you very heavily at this stage in their life. I am so grateful to have them in my world. Because of this I am not willing to jeopardize my time with them and this is why I no longer work on the weekends. I do hope that you understand.
Now one of the other things that contributes to the long wait is that I can only do so many readings in a day. I have not addressed this up until now. I am becoming more of a physical medium or channel. What that means is Spirit now enters into my physical body and shares space when I work. It is amazing to see the interactions between my clients in the Spirit. I am conscious when I work and still very much aware, but I find that I don't always have absolute physical control of my body. As you can imagine sharing space in your physical being with someone else can be a little taxing to say the least. With that in mind I can only spend so many hours in that mental and physical realm in one day.
This also brings me to another key question within my work which is “why are my sessions so long?’ Well I want you, my client, to have the very best. I want you to walk out of my front door feeling confident, secure and having all of your questions answered. That takes time. Yes, I could do 20 minute readings, but I choose not to because I know it's almost never enough time. Other Mediums may only make one connection where as I try to make upwards of three. My sessions run 60-90 minutes. Rarely do I ever finish with a client around the 60 minute mark. More than 90% of my sessions us the whole 90 minutes.
Some clients may think that this is only a part-time job for me because most Mediums tend to only work part time or have some other career. This is not my situation. I am dedicated to being a Medium full time and have been so for many years. I take my work very seriously. I work very hard not only for you, but for the opportunity to share the messages from the other side as I do believe it is a wonderful blessing to be able to do so.
I hope that you recognize that I love what I do and that for me, although I may not be able to remember our conversations, you are not just another number to me. When you sit down with me I'm here for you whole heartedly to help you understand what has happened with your loved ones, communicate what your angels are trying to share with you, and how your spirit guides are trying to help you towards your life goals.
Sending you an abundance of love, xo Truly
Hello lovies! It feels like forever since I wrote to you last. I suppose 3 months almost is forever.
I'd like to preface this with the fact that I always knew then I would have a C-section. I hoped, I prayed, I put it out there as much as I could to avoid it, but in the end I knew...
My baby girl is here. Miss Dharma arrived on September 10th. She is a lovely little babe. Her arrival was quite eventful. If you have been following along you would have known that I had a disease called Cholestasis. Essentially it slows your gallbladder down and then starts affecting your liver which creates a toxic environment in your body for your baby. That then means your baby needs to be delivered early usually anywhere between 35 and 38 weeks of gestation. I was being monitored very closely by a few doctors and they had come to the agreement that 37 weeks would be long enough for me to carry her.
Every time I enter a hospital I have company (spirits). I'm never alone nor are you. You just don't hear them the way I do. As you can imagine I try very hard to avoid them. The people, the emotion and the energy is incredibly overwhelming for me. I was very lucky as each time I went into the hospital my family who are on the other side also accompanied me. They weren't necessarily bodyguards, but they did take care of spirits that were restless and would not leave me alone. A lot of the times when I'm in the hospital I shut down and become very quiet. This is because I'm trying to block everything out. I remember a few times different nurses or even my husband asking me 'Truly did you get that?', 'Truly did you hear that?', ' Are you understanding?'.
The thing with substances whether it be drugs or alcohol is that it can either enhance your gifts or it can block your gifts. This is why I find a lot of Mediums are inclined to drink too much or inclined to use other substances, whether it's for escape or enhancement dependent on the Medium. I found that alcohol can enhance it but makes me very dependent. I have found the drugs/medication block it, so I don't use them.
We started the induction on the evening of September 8th with a drug called Cervidil. I was sent home to rest, relax & wait. The monster contractions started very quickly once the drug started taking effect. By 10 hours I was in complete agony. These contractions were worse than any contraction I had with my 2 previous births. After being assessed at the hospital the doctor told me I was not dilated and that all she could do is offer morphine for pain and carry on, or to remove the Cervidil & try again tomorrow. I opted to try again the next day. I went home had a chicken sandwich and went to bed still contracting.
The next day (Sept 9th) I return to the hospital around noon and was induced again with Cervidil & morphine, as they weren't willing to try any other drugs at this point. My husband took me home fed me two chicken sandwiches, and I slept for nearly 10 hours. All the while I was still contracting but because i rarely take a Tylenol, the morphine had knocked me out.
I return to the hospital on the morning of September 10th. They had two emergency C-section's and three other women in labour at that point, so unfortunately I had to wait. I was seen mid afternoon and upon checking my progress the OB/GYN found that I had still not dilated at all. They found this quite interesting as I've now had two rounds of this drug which was supposed to be ideal for my circumstances. After a lengthy discussion the doctors decided that it would be best if they tried a gel called Prostaglandin. After inserting the gel the doctor had a feeling to do an ultrasound just to check and see where the baby was. His face was indescribable. He knew we were having a problem. The baby had moved to a breech position again up under my right ribs. After calling in a second doctor to confirm he quickly tried to remove the gel. This was the most excruciating thing I've ever felt in my life. The doctor literally had to scrape the gel out of my cervix while a nurse held me down by my shoulders. To say that I don't have any trauma associated with that would be irresponsible (I'm certainly in need of a CCMBA). Nonetheless they did what they could to get the gel out. After allowing me to compose myself they asked how I wanted to proceed. At that point we could do what they call a 'version', and manually flip the baby using pressure on my belly or we could opt for a C-section.
I knew that if I just had a C-section I would beat myself up for the rest of my life knowing that my child would not get a lot of the health benefits of being born vaginally, so they tried to perform a version, three times. Yes three times they try to flip this baby. She wasn't going anywhere! When we finally gave up and the doctors told me that I need to have a C-section I could only shake my head. I knew it all along. It would be a few hours before they had all the right people in place to perform the major surgery, so as I waited I asked to have a shower and to be able to express some breastmilk for my brand-new baby. I sent my husband home to check on our other two children and tried to sit in contemplation and have a conversation with God and the Angels. I actually wasn't scared going into the C-section. I knew I would be OK whether I made it out or not. I also knew they wouldn't let me off the hook as I still have too much to do here on earth.
I am very lucky in the fact that I have a good girlfriend that works at the hospital that I delivered in. She also works in the surgery unit and was able to prep the room for my surgery. Not only did she make sure everything was clean physically but energetically the room was beautiful. (Thank you dear Jenny). Entering the surgery room was very cold and yet I knew that I was surrounded in light. I had three large angels over me as they laid me on the cold steel table. The surgeons and staff were very kind and did all that they could to help me feel comfortable. The room was literally filled with spirit. The only time I was concerned was when I heard a gasp from the surgeon as he removed Dharma from my body. Her umbilical cord was wrapped around her neck not one, not two, but three times! The cord was keeping her from descending down to be born. If I had pushed for a vaginal delivery she probably would have had some major complications.
They give you an incredible drugs when you go in for major surgery so much so that once I was out of surgery and into the recovery room there were only a few spirits that I knew were around me. The only reason I knew they were around me is because I could feel their vibration otherwise I couldn't hear see feel smell touch or taste a damn thing.
This block of information to all of my senses carried on for almost the entire time I was in the hospital. I've never felt more like a sane human being in my life. Lol. While in recovery I had quite a few nurses come and ask me about my work. I even had one of the two surgeons come and talk to me a little bit about what I do. I'm so shocked at how they don't know what I know. I would've thought that with all of their medical training and working in that environment they would have a better understanding, but a lot of them don't. It was a real pleasure to be able to help them understand the importance of their work.
Another really interesting point I should make is that my spirit guide the cardinal wasn't around much. He was quite upset with me as I did not stop working when he told me too. I knew the entire time that he was around and available if I needed him but only if I needed him. I also had faith that he would be there if I needed him and that he knew that I was OK and I trusted in that.
My girl kept passing all her tests and meeting or exceeding their expectations. We were out of the hospital on Sunday, September 12th.
They say it takes six weeks to recover from a major surgery like this. I'm inclined to agree with that statement. For the first two weeks I was on bedrest not allowed to even walk up and down my stairs. Every day I called the angels and asked for healing. Every day I felt them with me helping me to feel better and to evolve. In that time I had some lovely friends and family members come and help take care of my family and me. It was very difficult for me to allow others to do that for me. I tend to be overly independent and overly strong, so it was very hard for me to except help.
As I needed to stop working early on because of my health concerns I tried very hard to get back to work as soon as possible. I started back to work when she was 5 weeks old. Yes, my return to work is slow but I am still working. Do know friends that I am doing my best to work as often and frequently as I can not only for you, but for me too. There is a sense of joy and love that I get from bringing your loved ones to you.
Having a new baby means a few things. It means that I can't work for great lengths of time as I used to. I can't do back to back readings. I can't host workshops. I can't do big events. These are things that I do genuinely miss. Although, it does mean I can get snuggles every hour of the day. I can watch a person grow to be a person in their own right. I can help to inspire another life.
My work I'll continue as always. This is who I am and I can't deny that. You'll have to excuse me if I take a little more time falling in love with the little girl who chose me to be her mum.
Sending you & yours light, love & harmony. Xo Truly
I am pretty sick.
I don't like admitting this. I hate letting others see me vulnerable. I am strong, confident & totally I charge..... Most of the time. But not today, not for a while actually.
Many of you know I'm more of a natural type of girl. It's rare that I take a Tylenol for a headache. There are many reasons for this, my personal views on drugs being one & how it affects my work & my lifestyle being another. I had both boys naturally.
I sit here in the hospital for the 3rd time in 2 weeks, tomorrow will make it 4 times. I really dislike hospitals. This one in particular as I lost my dad here. Hospitals are hot spots for spirit.... Think about it.
From the time I step on to the curb to the time I leave to come home I always have 'someone' with me. I've had all types of 'spirit' come through; nurses who can't let go, doctors that don't feel they were able to make enough of a difference & of course patients who never made it out. I'm sure you can imagine how 'busy' it really is in my head. Most of the time if I ask to be left alone they respect my wishes. But just as there are living people who cross the line, there are dead ones who do too. That's when I'm so thankful to have my dad with me. He was always great at 'crowd' control. He even helped save the Eaton Centre from the Riots in the 90's.
You may think that the mother & baby unit or Labour & delivery unit are quiet..... They are far from quiet. Especially in this hospital as it was once the mental health unit...... Spirits come & go all the time. Spirits love new babies just as much as we do. Maybe even more so as babies can see/feel/hear them. Its comforting to know that they always have someone around, mostly family & loved ones. Spirit in these units / departments always comes with best wishes.
I on the other hand would have rather stayed home. At first it was the placenta Previa that was forcing me into a hospital birth. That cleared up & I was taken off bed rest, only to find out later that week that I have obstetrical choliostasis.....
It's a big term to say that my gallbladder isn't working properly and therefore effecting my liver, which I turn is running slower than it should. It means I am becoming toxic!
It's now a race against time; if the baby stays in too long (going to term) I will have a still born, but if they take the baby too early that can create many other complications.
To say I am terrified is an understatement. This is my 13 pregnancy. Yes, 13! The nurses and doctors think I'm crazy I'm sure. I have my 2 happy healthy boys (they youngest turned 3 today), and I miscarried 11 others all before the end of the first trimester. This baby is my last. I am finally throwing in the towel.
I had planned a beautiful home water birth with my amazing midwives & my incredible doula. My family would be present to welcome our new member right away & shower them with love. Letting this go is necessary but not easily done. I am heartbroken.
I am now facing another hospital birth, which will be induced in the next 2 weeks or so, which may or may not turn out to be a c section (which means even more hospital time) as this little one is still Breach.
I'm exhausted, itchy, sore, uncomfortable, fight daily with heartburn, vomiting & headaches. I'm delighted to be pregnant & am really looking forward to meeting this little one. In the end all I want is a healthy happy baby.
So, if you've wondered where I am..... This is where I am. In the incredibly busy loud hospital trying to keep my sanity. Listening to the living & the dead, waiting for the time that I can walk out of here with my baby in my arms.
I hope you are well on this lovely spring morning. I am writing to you from bed. Yes, bed. I normally would not admit something like that, but it seems this is my place lately. If you were at either of my March 20th shows or are signed up for my news letter you’d already know that I announced that I’m currently pregnant and expecting my new bundle of joy in September. I have been having some complications and have been having to take time off. This little one has been teaching me to trust the plans of the universe and how to surrender. Both not very easy for me to do, as I am much like the rest of the world, wanting instant gratification.
So with this news I hope you know you (my clients), are a priority to me. I unfortunately cannot work when I’m in pain. Many people have said, ‘take a Tylenol & get on with it’. And normally I would but when I take drugs it lowers my vibration and can also create weakness in my auric field which in turn effects the quality of my work. I’ve had so many people understandably say ‘but I’ve waited so long to see you’. I know you have. I have an assistant to help me keep track of my business, but I am still very in touch with its heartbeat. I am aware of how long you have waited. I am aware that you may have been counting down the days. I too look forward to making connections for you from the other side.
I am also aware that you could go and see someone else. I am aware that I am not the only ‘Medium’ on the planet. I am sorry for the circumstances but I recognize this is out of my control. As much as I hate admitting it, I don’t believe in accidents or coincidences. I was working too much, and God and the universe knew the only way to slow me down was to make me. This is a huge lesson for me and one that I am doing my best to embrace and learn from.
My promise to you is that I will continue to work as often as I can. I hope that you will see that I do value your patronage and love. If you feel you cannot wait to see me, by all means search out another Medium. Remember to trust your instincts and your own internal guidance when choosing who to see. There are some fantastic workers out there.
We all must do what is right for us, without intentionally hurting others or ourselves. Thank you for understanding & I look forward to our meeting.
All Love, Truly
There are many types of Spirit Guides; Animal, Human, Elemental. Today I’d like to discuss the Human type, as they are what I work with most often and who I know best.
Human Spirit guides know you. They know your soul. Most often they have shared a previous life with you. They could have been your friend, family member, lover or enemy in that lifetime. Before you come to the earth for this lifetime you both agree that they will help you navigate this new lifetime so that you can accomplish as much as possible while here.
Many times when I have a spirit guide show up for a session with a client they tell me about the clients previous life. They share some of the lessons that were being learned and what their role was for my client in that lifetime. It can be absolutely amazing to see the parallels unfold between the two lives. When we see a continuation of a lesson from one lifetime to another it can explain why we may have such a strong reaction or feeling about something. (examples are: feeling drawn to a certain place, time period or person. Having no rational or logical feeling like you cannot trust others or that you are afraid of heights/snakes/water/etc.) Sometimes when we know what we are supposed to learn from a problem, we can than embrace the lesson and allow it to complete without much resistance.
Spirit guides are here to help guide you to the direction you need to go or to help you address an issue so that you can move on. They WILL NOT make decisions for you. They will push you towards what would be best for you and invite you to use your free will to make the decision for yourself. Spirit guides give us that gut feeling when something is off. It feels like knowingness in your soul. They can also do other things like give us goose bumps or shivers to help us recognize their presence. Spirit Guides typically stay with us to solve a problem or to get us back on track much like angels do. Not all spirit guides stay with us though.
There is a special classification of spirit guide that is with you from the time of birth to the time of death. This is what most spiritualists refer to a ‘door keeper’ or ‘gate keeper’. These guides are with us for the long haul and typically have a profound impact on our lives.
I call my door keeper the ‘Cardinal’. He was a cardinal in the Catholic faith in his last incarnation & typically shows up in full regalia. He has glasses and sometimes even sports a beard. What he did to get suck with me I may never know. He has been with me as long as I can remember. For me, I usually ‘hear’ him speak to me on my left side. I can also feel his presence at times. He is with me for all the spiritual work I do. We have a special bond as he is one of my closest & dearest friends.
When I teach mediumship classes, spirit guides are one of the first things covered as they are so integral to our spiritual growth. Here on my website under ‘free meditations’ you will find a guided meditation that was designed to allow you to connect with your spirit guide. It is called Sleigh Ride Meditation. Here is the link: http://www.trulymedium.com/free-meditation.html
You can also purchase a copy of this meditation (and others) on CD or on an ISong download card. Here is the link for that: http://www.trulymedium.com/shop.html
If you’d like to meet your spirit guide or just get to know them better I suggest you print off a copy of the questions I have written below. You should read them before you go into your meditation. Ask for your spirit guide to be present, give you the information they are willing to share with you at this time and to allow you to remember it after you return from your meditation. Be sure to write your answers down right away or you may forget them. If you ask they will do their best to help. You must remember to ask! Anyway, take some time and have fun getting to know your spirit guides. They can be a great asset for you to utilize when you need help or direction.
Questions for your Door Keeper or Gate Keeper
Name (official or Nickname)?
What was your role or occupation in your last incarnation?
When was your last incarnation? (if no date, when does it feel like?)
What kind relationship did we have?
What lessons were we working on together in that lifetime and did we complete them?
How do you communicate with me now?
How can I tell when you are working with me?
What sensations can/should I feel when we are connected?
What is your goal to help me with this lifetime?
Are there any symbols that I can use to help my connection with you?
It’s 4:30 am and I am awake again. Heartburn…. Sigh.
I think its funny, I do my damndest to convince people that I’m just like anyone else. I don’t think they believe me. Tee hee.
In many aspects I am just like you. I live like you. I breathe the same air as you. I catch colds and the flu like you. I need to eat like you. I feel emotion like you.
I’m sure you don’t see it this way, but I also grieve just like you. I cry like you. I feel lost like you. I miss their physical presence of my people like you. I long for their smell, just like you. I want to hear their voice again too. I have insomnia like you. I can breathe like you. I feel the emotions just like you.
The difference for me is that I KNOW without a doubt that this isn’t the end. That does not take away the pain or hurt that I feel when you physically, wholly, totally miss someone. When you loved someone.
In my house March has always been a tough month. When I was a kid, it was hard work. My parents were avid gardeners. So much of my time was spent helping to grow seeds. We had a ‘living’ wall in the kitchen. Two of the 4 sides of the dining area in the kitchen were large glass windows with lots of morning and afternoon light. It was a glorious time of my life as all childhoods should be.
He died in March, my dad. He died on the first day of spring. It was his favorite time of year. Everything budding and sprouting. Always new growth. His birds returning from their ‘vacation’. Even now I giggle to think how excited he was to go to the garden center to pick up the different fertilizers and the bird seed.
I was 12, about to turn 13. He died the way I saw it in my dreams. They started showing me at the age of 7 what was to come. I’d wake up crying in a panic. Inevitably one of my parents would come in and hush me back to sleep. Telling me I was just a sensitive kid. I worried because my daddy worked a dangerous job (he was a police officer). But I knew…. I knew the way you know how the milk in the fridge is spoiled after you’ve returned from a trip, but you do the smell check just because you hope to be wrong. I knew.
I was always told that there were no accidents or coincidences in life. That fortunately, is something that each of us need to truly discover for ourselves. I loved my best friend growing up, but sometimes I wondered what we had in common. What made us so close? Why were we in each other’s lives?
It was about 10 years later that I got the call that HER father had died. He was a good man. He loved his children. They knew he wasn’t well but no one expected him to go. At least not his youngest daughter. She was 12.
He died 3 calendar days before my dad. He died on St. Patrick’s day. He was very much a father to me after my dad passed. Both men funny, and opinionated. Both men living difficult lives. Both men smokers and drinkers.
You see, no one is immune to grief. No one can erase the memories of someone they loved. That’s what makes death so terribly hard and real. You only miss that person because you loved them. They impacted you. They left their mark on your soul. You may not have always agreed with them. You may not have always approved of their actions. But you LOVED them.
Saying goodbye in the physical sense is never easy. And as time passes our bodies remember the big impacts in our life. Our soul remembers the trauma’s of this physical existence. It remembers the joys and the sorrows. This is part of our lesson here. To understand grief. To remember to be gentle and patient with one another. To allow emotions to arise and fall like the coming and going of the tides.
It’s a delicate thing this life. As a Medium I am reminded of this constantly. I don’t know if that makes me stride to be a better person or not. The reminder that this, here & now is only temporary is so very real for me. This is not to say I’m perfect. I am a far stretch from that. God knows. But maybe it makes me a bit more appreciative of the time I do have.
I always take time off in March. This year I decided to celebrate the life lived, instead of getting caught up in the pain. 23 years is a long time to miss someone. So this year on March 20th I’ll spend it doing what I love best. I’ll be connecting for you, to bring you that hope, that peace, that reassurance that they are still here. They are with us. They still exist and want us to be happy. That’s all they ever want, is our happiness.
On that note, like a few other people I know, music is a huge thing for me. And so I leave you with this song. I’m not an especially huge fan of country music, but I will say that it is genuine, written with heart and always has a message.
All Love, Truly
Randy Travis – 3 Wooden Crosses
January 3rd 2016 at the Divine Light Spiritual Foundation
The songs I picked for the Service today were:
On my way by Phil Collins from the movie Brother Bear https://youtu.be/NDtBnTMpltM
Mercy by Dave Matthews Band https://youtu.be/D_86LXVvzgc
Adventure of a Lifetime by Coldplay https://youtu.be/QtXby3twMmI
I hope you enjoy them.
To prefix this ‘inspirational talk’ I want you to know this was the most difficult one I have done to date.
In 2014 I was also blessed with the honour of giving the last talk of the year. I spoke about survival, and recovery… Part of me feels that’s what set the tone for my year ahead…Sigh… Thought is energy and be mindful of what you focus on. I have posted that talk in the blog below...
This year I have vowed to be more of my ‘Authentic Self’. I’ve vowed to come from a place of ‘Heart Centered Spirituality’, and show you my real self, whether you like it or not… & whether or not I’m really ready too or not.
But I trust in God. I trust. So here goes….
The Importance of Prayer
In Alice Walker’s Book The Color Purple, we are reminded that: “God ain’t he or she, but it…. Don’t look like anything. It ain’t something you can look at apart from anything else, including you. I believe God is everything. Everything that is or ever was or ever will be. And when you can feel that, and be happy to feel that, you’ve found it.”
So, let me clarify for you: All of these words are inter changeable: God, Buddha, Jesus, Ala, Christ Consciousness, Oneness, Universe, Infinite Intelligence, The Force, Divine Spirit, Universal Energy and so on…… Do you understand me? Yes, ok, lets carry on….
Prayer is NOT about what you can get, but rather a way of relating to your understanding of God. The act of prayer is to re-establish or strengthen our connection with Spirit Energy.
Prayer can be used to express the Truth of our own places in the universe. Everyday it can be used to remind us of our presence in this infinite mystery and unending time.
Prayer is useful. Just as the body needs rest, the mind needs peace and the spirit needs attention. Prayer is a conscious decision to focus our attention on ONENESS.
If you want to FEEL God, Energy or the DIVINE SPIRIT in your daily life, you need to act as if it is already a part of you. We are one divine energy or inspiration if you will.
Prayer can be simple:
Guide me, Remind me of the Truth of my being. Help me to see beyond what I can physically see. Give me courage and strength to share myself authentically. Inspire my Soul to do your work.
One of the best Confidence builders is experience. I have some….
Rilke’s Letters to a Young Poet
“Don’t think that the person who is trying to comfort you now lives untroubled among the simple & quiet words that sometimes gives you pleasure. His life has much trouble and sadness, and remains behind yours. If it were otherwise, he could never been able to find those words.”
It is hard to admit a weakness. Its hard to admit a weakness to others that you admire. It is hard to admit weakness to people who have bestowed a sacred title to you…
In churches, a minister is someone who is authorized by a church or religious organization to perform functions such as teaching of beliefs; leading services such as weddings, baptisms or funerals; or otherwise providing spiritual guidance to the community.
Notice how it doesn’t say anything about perfection…. Although it certainly feels implied sometimes… The heaviness of this title is not to be taken lightly. Please know, I don't.
340 days…Can you guess what 340 days is? If you trace it back it will bring you to January 28th, 2015. That is my Sobriety date.
I am an alcoholic. I am what they call a ‘binge’ drinker… the semantics of this are not important to this talk, but that is the kind of alcoholic I am, in case you wanted to know.
Although like most alcoholics I have some incredible stories, funny and entertaining, the best one is of my sobriety. It gave me my life back. It gave me purpose again. Admitting my problem gave me peace. When I accepted it, I was able to change. Change is what I needed most.
Sure I used a lot of tools to ‘get better’. The one that has seen me through day in and day out is prayer. That’s what I hope to share with you today. It can be simple and eloquent. Or it can be dirty, messy and fist pumping. It can be whispered, thought, yelled, kept in secret or shared. It can be big or small. Its up to you. You are the deciding factor in your prayer.
You see I needed to tell you this so that you can see I’m no different from you. I am flawed. I am hurt. I am growing. I am grateful. I am honest. I am trying. I am human. Remember you and I are the same.
You see we are all equal in Spirit- not one of us any different- and yet we feel different because of what we experience and the actions that we do, or do not.
When we recognize that we are not in charge, and that the only thing we can do is take charge of ourselves and our actions, that is when we awaken. None of us are in charge of the universe or the actions or non-actions of others.
We are only in charge of ourselves.
This is when we start to realize how important that connection to the ‘oneness’, ‘god’, ‘divine spirit’, ‘universe’, or ‘force’ really is. We need to keep and maintain that connection to this so we can keep our connection to others.
Some of the easiest prayers I have used have been:
‘Spirit I accept your guidance’
‘I forgive myself, I forgive you. I understand shortcomings. I understand misunderstandings. I accept myself in human form.’
‘I need not be better than anyone else, but to be better than I used to be.’
‘I ask for transformation of what is in my control.’
“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference.’
‘I am becoming more and more myself.’
‘Guide me to my best self. Let me say yes to possibilities. Let me feel hope.’
‘I ask for circles of healing, the heartbeat, the planet in the mantle of love.’
‘Let love heal.’
‘In the light, blessed be.”
‘Let me know when I am ready.’
‘I wish the best for all of us.’
‘Let me choose cooperation. Let me choose love.’
‘Use me as your instrument.’
‘Let peace begin with me.’
‘From Spirit, Through Spirit, To Spirit.’
“Let Love In.’
‘One Love, One Heart.’
‘Thy will be done.”
Dear ones, Prayer is just as important as meditation. I think we forget this…. I know I did. Meditation is listening to God, Prayer is speaking to God. Now is the time. We all want to be great, and truth be told greatness requires sacrifice. It requires doing things that others won’t or can’t do. GREAT HABITS ARE FORMED DAILY. The fact is, good habits require consistent commitment. Highly successful people have learned to develop good habits. Make the commitment to make it past the obstacles’, no matter how many times you need to go back to it and start again to reach new levels of success. This is something that can and will change your life for the better. Trust me, I’m pretty confident in this.
Please feel free to use one of the above prayers, or make your own. But do it consistently. You will see what I'm talking about. So Dear Ones, when I say to you, I care not how you pray…… as long as you do, what I’m really saying is ‘please reconnect, we need you’.
All Love, xo Truly
A Daughter, Sister, Wife, Mother, Friend, Reverend & Medium!
Oshawa psychic & medium