It's been rough...
I am thankful that the Ontario Government is slowly lifting the bans on life. Being in lockdown is so incredibly painful for this empath. Not that I want to see all the people. Nope not at all. I’m happy in my hobbit hole thanks. But I tend to feel the collective stagnancy, frustration and depression. My body feels the exhaustion while my brain watches others mind-numb with substance abuse, and escape mechanisms. yuck.
My Bio Dad’s birthday was on the 7th of June. He would have been 77 this year. 7 was his favourite number.
It was also Father’s day this past Sunday. 27 years without him to hug and kiss. 23 years to celebrate with my cool step dad. 11 celebrated with my Kyle, my kiddo’s dad.
It was National Indigenous Peoples Day on June 21st. It is the official day of celebration to recognize and honour the achievements, history and reich cultures of First Nations, Inuit and Metis people in Canada. They keep finding unmarked or maybe unrecorded graves of indigenous children at residential schools. Indigenous women continue to go missing without the support of our government to search for them, or even prevent this from happening. There are STILL Indigenous communities in this country WITHOUT CLEAN WATER. These issues are painful. These are atrocities. I am personally struggling with how to respond and what I can do. What is in my capacity. Where my vote, voice and money are going.
I started looking for Office Space. Insert crying sobs here. Commercial space is so expensive. I could make compromises, and exceptions sure. I could rent temporary space. I could share space. But the truth of the matter is I know my work would suffer greatly for this. I’m just not willing to give less that my all. I have worked since the age of 14. This is the longest period of time in my life that I have not worked (not even my maternity leaves were this long). I will continue to wait and ask the universe to guide me. When I can return to work, I will.
I’ve recently had a flair in Polycystic Ovarian Cysts. I even had one burst, which is incredibly painful while happening but the after effects typically last about 2-3 weeks. It takes a while to heal the burns left from the acid on the vaginal walls. Did you just grimace? I did while writing it. When a women’s hormones are off her whole world is off. There is pain, rage, tears and eventually acceptance that there is nothing to be done but just keep living. No magic pill. No miracle cure. Just keep doing the best you can. And try your best not to be too hard on yourself.
In my somatic trauma resolution practice I have been working on boundaries (internal and external). Looking at underlying beliefs that were given to me or naturally absorbed over the years. I’m consciously looking at what I know to be true, what is false and how that lands in my reality.
When I started looking at my belief’s it became rather painful. Who am I? like not just who is Truly Medium and what does she do….. but more like who is Truly? Not the titles, labels, classes or experiences. Not what I can do and what I have done. But WHO AM I? What do I believe in? What is love? Can it be limited? Should it be limited? What do I really think and feel about money? What is my value? What is my worth? How much alone time is too much? How many people do I really want in my circles (friend circle, acquaintance circle, family circle)? How much stuff is too much? What I think about these things is one thing. How I apply them in my physical reality and live an authentic life is another.
There are so many ebbs and flows. There are other things in my life that I am working through too that I’m not ready or willing to share at this time. They are heavy. I actively surrender them to the universe with love.
I know none of you take it personally that I’m not posting much. I know you are loving and forgiving creatures. I’m really just writing this for me. Documenting where I am at this moment in time. So enough wallowing. I’m going to go sit in the sun. and maybe even have a nap. Sleep is good. Loving you. xo, T
P.S. If your my kid some time in the future and reading my posts, I have loved you with every breath I breathe. You are worth every struggle, every stress and every pain. You bring incredible joy to my life and I’m thankful for you everyday. Even on the days that I yell. Even on the days that you don’t listen. Even on the days when I need to run away for a while. I love you always.
P.P.S. Here is the link to Connect, Ground, Protect. If you’re an empath like me, you need this. This is what has saved me time and time again.
My Bio Dad’s birthday was on the 7th of June. He would have been 77 this year. 7 was his favourite number.
It was also Father’s day this past Sunday. 27 years without him to hug and kiss. 23 years to celebrate with my cool step dad. 11 celebrated with my Kyle, my kiddo’s dad.
It was National Indigenous Peoples Day on June 21st. It is the official day of celebration to recognize and honour the achievements, history and reich cultures of First Nations, Inuit and Metis people in Canada. They keep finding unmarked or maybe unrecorded graves of indigenous children at residential schools. Indigenous women continue to go missing without the support of our government to search for them, or even prevent this from happening. There are STILL Indigenous communities in this country WITHOUT CLEAN WATER. These issues are painful. These are atrocities. I am personally struggling with how to respond and what I can do. What is in my capacity. Where my vote, voice and money are going.
I started looking for Office Space. Insert crying sobs here. Commercial space is so expensive. I could make compromises, and exceptions sure. I could rent temporary space. I could share space. But the truth of the matter is I know my work would suffer greatly for this. I’m just not willing to give less that my all. I have worked since the age of 14. This is the longest period of time in my life that I have not worked (not even my maternity leaves were this long). I will continue to wait and ask the universe to guide me. When I can return to work, I will.
I’ve recently had a flair in Polycystic Ovarian Cysts. I even had one burst, which is incredibly painful while happening but the after effects typically last about 2-3 weeks. It takes a while to heal the burns left from the acid on the vaginal walls. Did you just grimace? I did while writing it. When a women’s hormones are off her whole world is off. There is pain, rage, tears and eventually acceptance that there is nothing to be done but just keep living. No magic pill. No miracle cure. Just keep doing the best you can. And try your best not to be too hard on yourself.
In my somatic trauma resolution practice I have been working on boundaries (internal and external). Looking at underlying beliefs that were given to me or naturally absorbed over the years. I’m consciously looking at what I know to be true, what is false and how that lands in my reality.
When I started looking at my belief’s it became rather painful. Who am I? like not just who is Truly Medium and what does she do….. but more like who is Truly? Not the titles, labels, classes or experiences. Not what I can do and what I have done. But WHO AM I? What do I believe in? What is love? Can it be limited? Should it be limited? What do I really think and feel about money? What is my value? What is my worth? How much alone time is too much? How many people do I really want in my circles (friend circle, acquaintance circle, family circle)? How much stuff is too much? What I think about these things is one thing. How I apply them in my physical reality and live an authentic life is another.
There are so many ebbs and flows. There are other things in my life that I am working through too that I’m not ready or willing to share at this time. They are heavy. I actively surrender them to the universe with love.
I know none of you take it personally that I’m not posting much. I know you are loving and forgiving creatures. I’m really just writing this for me. Documenting where I am at this moment in time. So enough wallowing. I’m going to go sit in the sun. and maybe even have a nap. Sleep is good. Loving you. xo, T
P.S. If your my kid some time in the future and reading my posts, I have loved you with every breath I breathe. You are worth every struggle, every stress and every pain. You bring incredible joy to my life and I’m thankful for you everyday. Even on the days that I yell. Even on the days that you don’t listen. Even on the days when I need to run away for a while. I love you always.
P.P.S. Here is the link to Connect, Ground, Protect. If you’re an empath like me, you need this. This is what has saved me time and time again.
https://www.trulymedium.com/blog/connect-ground-protect-technique
Full Moon Sacred Burn Release Ceremony fom 7/4/2020
Hello Loves,
A dear friend asked me for guidance on how to do a burn release for tonights full moon. So I drafted this simple ceremony. The full moon is the perfect time to let go of all that no longer serves your highest good. I hope this script helps you in whatever you choose to release tonight or in moons to come.
Sending you all love, xoxo T
P.S. If you have ever attended one of my Gather the Women Circles you will recognize the Fear Release ;)
Full Moon Sacred Burn Release
Drafted by Truly Medium
Before you Begin:
Please Please Please be CAREFUL when working with fire. Be extremely diligent and have water or a fire extinguisher available to put it out at any point. If you do not have a bon fire, you can use a caldron or a cast iron pot to burn your papers in. Again, be sure to be diligent in containing the heat and flame. I take no responsibility for what you do.
Gather and place any crystals, jewelry, water or items you wish to energetically clear and recharge with the moon energy in the sacred space BEFORE you start.
Bring a pen/pencil and note pad (possibly tissues) to help you release.
Know that you can/should personalize this how you see fit. This is just a guideline to get you started.
Gather around where the fire will be/is. Allow a moment of silent reflection to recognize the creation of a sacred space. Take at least 3 Belly Breaths to allow your body to acknowledge the change in energy.
Step forward and light the fire or just become more aware of an already lit flame.
Now is the time to throw loose dried sage leaves (cooking ones will do) into the fire or to pass around a sage stick to energetically clear the space.
Speak:
Land acknowledgement:
[Insert name of city/town] is located on the traditional territory of Indigenous peoples dating back countless generations. I want to show my respect for their contributions and recognize the role of treaty making in what is now Ontario. We wish to express gratitude to Mother Earth and for the resources we are using. We honour all the First Nation, Métis and Inuit people who have been living on the land since time immemorial and give thanks to them.
Mother Moon, Goddess, Bringer of Light, thank you for your powerful blessings on this night. I invoke you into my being and soul, fill up this vessel and make it whole. I stand before you in awe and love, I cherish the gifts you send from above.
Sacred Flame Spirit, creator of heat and change, thank you for your presence and blessings on this night. I invoke you to bring forth all your magic. I stand in awe and love of your gifts.
When fear overwhelms truth and love we call it pain. We have carried fear & pain for centuries in our cellular memory. These are barriers of love and wisdom. We all have fears. We all have pain, resentment, anger and hurt.
This is your opportunity to release and let the universe hear your request. Take a moment to get in touch with these feelings. Close your eyes and let your soul surrender to these feelings and emotions. (Breathe)
Let them be written. Allow them to bleed onto the paper. Write what you feel. Write what you cannot say. Write what needs to be released. Write what no longer serves a purpose. Write the burdens your heart carries.
(give a few minutes)
When you are ready, fold it up (accordion style burns best). Approach the fire & say:
Sacred Flame Spirit, I ask you to help me release and recycle this energy into a positive motion to help me move forward on my life path. I choose to let go of all that no longer serves my highest and greatest good.
Mother Moon I ask that you help me to ease the past so that I may grow into the future with grace and confidence.
Burn your list in the fire. Return to your seat.
Dear one, fear and love cannot exist in the same vibration/frequency.
Pick up your note pad again and write all you are thankful for. Write all things big and small. As you do you will begin to feel an energy shift. You will be standing in the vibration/energy of love and abundance.
When you feel it is complete, you can burn it releasing it to the universe as well or fold it up and put it in your wallet or tucked away in a special spot as a reminder.
If you choose to burn it fold it up (accordion style burns best). Approach the fire & say:
Sacred Flame Spirit, I ask you to help me amplify the love and gratitude on this paper. Help me release this magic into the universe.
Mother Moon I ask that you help me to create and disperse more love throughout my life there by affecting all the world.
Touch or place your hand over your crystals, jewelry, tools, water or items.
Say:
Mother Moon I ask you to help me release any stagnant energy that is present here. Release anything that no longer serves my highest good. I ask that you replace it with your light and love. So mote it be.
With 3 belly breaths allow yourself to become centered.
Say:
Mother Moon, Goddess, Bringer of Light, thank you for your powerful blessings on this night. I stand before you in awe and love, I cherish the gifts you send from above.
Sacred Flame Spirit, creator of heat and change, thank you for sharing your magic tonight. I stand in love and awe of the gifts you have presented here.
Mother Earth thank you for the opportunity to learn and grow with you. I stand in love and gratitude for all you give.
As above so below, let in the light and let it grow. (Amen or ‘if it is for me, so mote it be’ or any other closing you see fit).
A dear friend asked me for guidance on how to do a burn release for tonights full moon. So I drafted this simple ceremony. The full moon is the perfect time to let go of all that no longer serves your highest good. I hope this script helps you in whatever you choose to release tonight or in moons to come.
Sending you all love, xoxo T
P.S. If you have ever attended one of my Gather the Women Circles you will recognize the Fear Release ;)
Full Moon Sacred Burn Release
Drafted by Truly Medium
Before you Begin:
Please Please Please be CAREFUL when working with fire. Be extremely diligent and have water or a fire extinguisher available to put it out at any point. If you do not have a bon fire, you can use a caldron or a cast iron pot to burn your papers in. Again, be sure to be diligent in containing the heat and flame. I take no responsibility for what you do.
Gather and place any crystals, jewelry, water or items you wish to energetically clear and recharge with the moon energy in the sacred space BEFORE you start.
Bring a pen/pencil and note pad (possibly tissues) to help you release.
Know that you can/should personalize this how you see fit. This is just a guideline to get you started.
- Clear the Space & Acknowledgements
- Fear Release
- Amplifying Gratitude
- Clearing and Charging Items
- Closing & Acknowledgements
- Clear the Space & Acknowledgements
Gather around where the fire will be/is. Allow a moment of silent reflection to recognize the creation of a sacred space. Take at least 3 Belly Breaths to allow your body to acknowledge the change in energy.
Step forward and light the fire or just become more aware of an already lit flame.
Now is the time to throw loose dried sage leaves (cooking ones will do) into the fire or to pass around a sage stick to energetically clear the space.
Speak:
Land acknowledgement:
[Insert name of city/town] is located on the traditional territory of Indigenous peoples dating back countless generations. I want to show my respect for their contributions and recognize the role of treaty making in what is now Ontario. We wish to express gratitude to Mother Earth and for the resources we are using. We honour all the First Nation, Métis and Inuit people who have been living on the land since time immemorial and give thanks to them.
Mother Moon, Goddess, Bringer of Light, thank you for your powerful blessings on this night. I invoke you into my being and soul, fill up this vessel and make it whole. I stand before you in awe and love, I cherish the gifts you send from above.
Sacred Flame Spirit, creator of heat and change, thank you for your presence and blessings on this night. I invoke you to bring forth all your magic. I stand in awe and love of your gifts.
- Fear Release
When fear overwhelms truth and love we call it pain. We have carried fear & pain for centuries in our cellular memory. These are barriers of love and wisdom. We all have fears. We all have pain, resentment, anger and hurt.
This is your opportunity to release and let the universe hear your request. Take a moment to get in touch with these feelings. Close your eyes and let your soul surrender to these feelings and emotions. (Breathe)
Let them be written. Allow them to bleed onto the paper. Write what you feel. Write what you cannot say. Write what needs to be released. Write what no longer serves a purpose. Write the burdens your heart carries.
(give a few minutes)
When you are ready, fold it up (accordion style burns best). Approach the fire & say:
Sacred Flame Spirit, I ask you to help me release and recycle this energy into a positive motion to help me move forward on my life path. I choose to let go of all that no longer serves my highest and greatest good.
Mother Moon I ask that you help me to ease the past so that I may grow into the future with grace and confidence.
Burn your list in the fire. Return to your seat.
- Amplifying Gratitude
Dear one, fear and love cannot exist in the same vibration/frequency.
Pick up your note pad again and write all you are thankful for. Write all things big and small. As you do you will begin to feel an energy shift. You will be standing in the vibration/energy of love and abundance.
When you feel it is complete, you can burn it releasing it to the universe as well or fold it up and put it in your wallet or tucked away in a special spot as a reminder.
If you choose to burn it fold it up (accordion style burns best). Approach the fire & say:
Sacred Flame Spirit, I ask you to help me amplify the love and gratitude on this paper. Help me release this magic into the universe.
Mother Moon I ask that you help me to create and disperse more love throughout my life there by affecting all the world.
- Clearing & Charging Items
Touch or place your hand over your crystals, jewelry, tools, water or items.
Say:
Mother Moon I ask you to help me release any stagnant energy that is present here. Release anything that no longer serves my highest good. I ask that you replace it with your light and love. So mote it be.
- Closing & Acknowledgements
With 3 belly breaths allow yourself to become centered.
Say:
Mother Moon, Goddess, Bringer of Light, thank you for your powerful blessings on this night. I stand before you in awe and love, I cherish the gifts you send from above.
Sacred Flame Spirit, creator of heat and change, thank you for sharing your magic tonight. I stand in love and awe of the gifts you have presented here.
Mother Earth thank you for the opportunity to learn and grow with you. I stand in love and gratitude for all you give.
As above so below, let in the light and let it grow. (Amen or ‘if it is for me, so mote it be’ or any other closing you see fit).
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