I started having contractions around 3 am. I paced & danced across the floor to cope. Around 4 am, I woke my hubby up & asked him to time the contractions while I was in the shower (water helps me big time). So into the shower I climbed, ready to let the warm water beat down on my back. I think I was in for 10 minutes or so when I heard 'Truly, call your midwives. It's time'. I grabbed the wall in shock, my pour husband thought I was having a contraction. All I could think was, 'could it be? Was it really him?'. I then heard 'well I can't very well come in the shower with you & you need to get your arse in gear & get to the hospital. He's coming.' I broke out laughing histerically. My pour hubby, I really wish he could hear what I hear. The reason why I was laughing was because I was hearing my dad for the first time in over 10 years & he was being a cheeky bugger (where I get it from I'm sure). He was there when I needed him most. You see, I've always been able to 'see' my dad after he crossed, just not hear him. I chalked it up to it being too raw or emotionally overwhelming for me. You see most mediums, can't do for themselves. We too have to find a medium to connect with our own loved ones. When I explained to Kyle who it was & why I was laughing he immediately got on the phone with the midwives & started getting ready. I had Tom, my 1st little guy (incidentally named after my dad), at home. It was a beautiful birth which I hoped to repeat. Complications prevented me from having my home birth so I was told I MUST go to the hospital. Normally, I'm not one to argue when it comes to our safety but I had some huge reservations. Hospitals are like hot spots for mediums. There is a tremendous amount of metaphysical activity in & around them. Just think of all the people who go there to pass away. Anyway my worries were eased a bit as now I knew my dad would be there to protect me while I was giving birth. When I arrived at the hospital I wasn't able to focus much (6am). I had planned to use hypnobirthing for pain management like I did with Tom, but the spirits kept me too distracted. They were a talkative bunch & I had to remind them I couldn't help them at this exact moment & that they would have to wait. By 9 am I was given extra hormones & laughing gas for the pain. Dad had them lining up at the door, each one waiting to tell me their story. My dad was a police officer, so he was always good at crowd control, lol. At 12 noon, Graham finally arrived. I could hear my Dads words of encouragement & congratulations in my ears. My wishes to be left alone (by Other spirits) was honored for the next hour. When all the commotion was over (baby testing, getting dressed, etc) there they were,at the door, waiting for me. I listened as best I could & helped those I could. It was not easy. I was exhausted, but I knew I had to try. I was released by 2 pm & headed home with my new baby.
Since then, I have gone back to the hospital to try to help the others. It is very difficult as the family they want to connect with are not usually there anymore & I can't get enough information to go looking for them. It's become a habit of mine to surround our local hospital with love & light on almost a nightly basis. I encourage those spirits to cross over. Reminding them that they have more free will once they have crossed than staying here.
Since the arrival of Graham, I have heard my dad once more. But I have not seen him. I don't understand why, or the reasoning behind it. All I know is that it was absolutely awesome to hear that old familiar voice, telling me how proud of me he was & how much he loved me.
Well lovies I hate to love ya & leave ya but its 3:30 am & Graham is looking for mummy. Lol. Thanks for reading. I've got 2 more blog topics ready to go in my head & will hopefully get them out sooner than later.
Love & Light, Truly